The first punishment spanking I ever got as an adult

Ah, I remember it well… I was 19 and in college. I had my first boyfriend ever, and while we experimented A LOT, I had a hard time revealing my secret love of spanking to him.

One time he had to go on some kind of trip – I can’t remember where or for what – so he was out of town for a couple of weeks. Of course, I pined after him like you can only pine after your first serious love, and I hung out with our friends to distract myself.

One night we were drinking in my friend’s dorm room. I generally get crazier the more I drink, so I was being ridiculous. Our dorm was a high rise and we were on the 10th floor. The building was super old, built before safety regulations, so the windows actually slid to the side to open all the way – literally nothing to stop you from jumping or falling out. In my drunken state, I laid on my back on the bed in front of the window and started playing with kleenex. I would take a kleenex, put it over my face, then blow a quick puff of air to make it fly up. Then it would get sucked out of the open window. I found this HILARIOUS, but at some point decided that I needed to try to catch the kleenex once they had escaped the building. So I started leaning out the window, flailing my arms around to catch the wayward tissues.

My friends freaked out, and my friend’s boyfriend pulled me back in. Of course, I had to be restrained a few more times (alcohol only accentuates my natural stubbornness), but they kept me from dying.

A few days later, my boyfriend was back in town and we were hanging out with those friends in the same dorm room. Suddenly my female friend piped up to tattle on how I’d “almost died” by “trying to jump out of the window.”

“You did what?” my boyfriend asked.

I laughed and explained that it was just an instance of drunk logic. But my friends were no help – they kept jumping in with “She was crazy!” and “I had to pull her back in 100 times!”

My boyfriend just said “I see. Come here,” and pulled me over his lap, right there on the bed in front of the other couple. I put up a laughable fight, because let’s be honest, I was thrilled!

He started to spank me over my jeans with his hand. Our male friend, ever helpful, asked him if he wanted a belt. He accepted and administered a pretty good spanking over my jeans right there with the belt. Our friends watched and laughed, and you could tell they were a bit satisfied to see me punished for the anxiety I had caused them.

After that I was amazingly calm and tractable and hugged my boyfriend for the rest of the outing. When we got back to my dorm, I jumped him for sex. He was amazed to find me incredibly ready to go! Unfortunately, I was unable to find the courage to tell him that that was what I wanted, and being a 20 year old boy, he failed to make the connection.

Oh, what could have been!

Be still, my heart! (Or, you know, another part of my anatomy)

Ok, I found him – my perfect spanking match. I was looking for videos to satisfy my random spanking needs. Sometimes (ok, a lot of the time), I get in a mood to see an authoritative man give a hard spanking to a girl while lecturing her sternly. I loooove hearing “young lady,” “girl,” etc. I love to hear him rehashing what she did wrong and why she’s in trouble. And I like for the spanking to be hard and sometimes fast – none of that playing around and lightly swatting, then massaging, then lightly tapping. Come on now!

My search lead me to SpankingTube, where I found him:

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He’s PERFECT. He’s stern and his voice is just deep enough. He doesn’t yell – he calmly lectures as he spanks OTK with a firm hand. I ended up watching at least 20 of his videos and they ALL gave me goosebumps and made my stomach drop (in a good way).

Here are some of the very specific things he does that scratch my spanko itch in precisely the right way:

  • The way he rolls up his sleeves while telling the girl over his knee how disappointed he is in her and how she’s about to be punished. Something about seeing a man matter-of-factly roll up his sleeves has always given me a thrill!
  • The way he calmly but authoritatively takes off his belt when needed.
  • His confidence – Everything he does feels very purposeful. When he pauses, you can tell that he’s letting the lesson sink in. There’s no doubt about who’s in charge!
  • The actual spanking technique – solid. You KNOW it hurts. And in the middle of the spanking he goes hard and fast, regardless of how much the girl is squirming around. He doesn’t even make an issue of the fact that she squirms – he just holds her down and keeps spanking.

This man makes me MELT. He’s a no-nonsense alpha male. I feel like he’s going to be playing a large part in my fantasies from now on…

He also kind of makes me wish I’d explored getting spanked by strangers before I got married. When I was younger, that seemed crazy and like a surefire way to get murdered. But now I wish I’d tried it out!

So ladies, if you’re unattached, maybe look him up. Or any spanko man that makes your knees weak. Obviously, take precautions, but seize the day!

Questing for Authority

Yes, three posts in one night! I’ve been holding them in my head lately, so I might as well get it all out now.

As I mentioned earlier, I recently made a career change. I now work as a freelancer, so I go to a private work space and spend a lot of time quietly working on my computer alone. It’s great for a lot of reasons; flexibility, low stress, and actually more earning potential than my last job.

But at the same time, I find part of myself… questing for an authority figure.

Do you believe that people have energy or give off vibes? I’m not sure that I do, but you have to admit that people pick up on so much underlying meaning that’s not verbal. Now that I am my own boss, I feel like I’m a little incomplete. I feel like some inner part of me is longing for an authority figure.

As a (secretly) submissive woman, I’ve always worked best under a strong male leader. When a man who is weak, stupid, or otherwise undeserving of respect is in charge, I find that it brings out my contempt and brattiness. When a woman is in charge, I feel like it’s pretty neutral – doesn’t affect me one way or the other. But when a strong, effective, man is in charge… it gives me goosebumps! Then I strive to please him in my work. I flirt with danger by tempting myself with small disobediences and imagine how he would take me to task.

So now that I am, for the first time in my working life, in charge of myself… I feel a little lost. As a closet submissive, I really enjoy the dynamic of working under someone.

I feel like my energy/vibe right now is searching/longing for a supervisor. I find myself reacting strongly to my male clients and imagining what would happen if I displease them.

Somehow, I think my vanilla husband even felt it. We haven’t had much sex lately, due to lots of hectic life changes. But the other night, when I was feeling particularly in need of an authority figure, he somehow sensed that I was ripe. As I went for our usual goodnight kiss, he grabbed me, kissed me deeply, and forced me against the couch. Things got hot and heavy from there, and we FINALLY had sex!

So I do think that we give off energy that others can pick up on. What do you think? Guys, can you feel it with a woman is dying to be dominated?

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